A new Day Part II and III and IV etc etc etc

Well I can see that I came full circle to my relationship to God. I was
overwhelmed and needing to escape the difficulties of blending 7 children and a spouse of
our oldest one; Then the news that she is expecting in August of this year.

Yow-sa! I cant be a GRANDMOTHER! What the... How the..... HELP! I am continually giving my heart to God, as he knows that my relationship with my husbands children is strained.... at BEST.

I will pray for them. I will pray for me. I will pray for that baby!!

Iyanla Vanzant's book (Peace From Broken Pieces) taught me that there may be huge trials, but God has a RAM in the bush. I interpret this as, God is standing by (speaking softly but carrying a big stick) and HE will have revenge or punish unfair treatment.

I will leave it up to him.

Yup... I'm learning for sure! Against my will, but learning to trust and let go... BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.... ok, ok Im trying!

Two years later

Wow. Looking back at what I wrote two years ago, I can honestly say "Nothing has changed"!
Nothing except me! I see that I was focusing on how my husband was handling his children.
Now I focus on my own integrity and helping my own children navigate tough waters.

Since my last writing, I have literally transformed into a person who needs to self improve.
I let my husband handle his issues and stay out of the way of their interactions. I avoid being the reason they are disgruntled.

Since then, two daughters are in college full time and working.
Two children are freshmen in High School and life goes on!

Oh, I just did a commercial too! I know that the arts, specifically performing arts, are for me, the way to true expression and happiness.

I bid you adieu for now!

Drama 102

big spat with my daughter and husband because his daughter told on her and her friends and told on her own brother too (all 17 year olds) for drinking a wine cooler...we just went through this with a therapist who because step daughter was parading sans shirt in front room for her boyfriend and people walked in, the therapist said the kids shouldnt tell on her thats the problem... a murky mess!!

Step Parenting 101

ok I have 2 sets of twins 12 and 17 one boy and a 16 year old step daughter and 17 year old step son, and all I can say is "let the games begin"! I pray to God to grant me the grace not to go nuts on one specific step child who is constant competition with one of my eldest daughters!!

I dearly love my husband, but he fiercely protects his baby and refuses to discipline her.

I asked 2 friends what to do... the concensus: back away and let him handle it and focus on your marriage!! Hard to do with some questionable risque behavior...."let go, let God"

I pray for strength!!! But I need to focus on a new day of backing off and letting him take care of this problem....